Been Awhile.......

So, it's been awhile since I've written anything. A lot has happened so here goes:

Uh, in the process of a divorce, probably the biggest thing going on. I'm not sure if I ever was truly happy with him or not. I would like to think so, but just don't know at this point. Feeling a little shakey on relationships. You think you know someone, especially after ten years and then you find out you don't know them at all! It's crazy nuts to think I lived with this stranger for all these years. Now, it's time to find myself, exactly who I am and what I want in life, and then find that person who loves me and wants me for exaclty who I am. Cannot wait for that to happen, and when it does I am sure I'll know, I hope. I know in my heart that this was the right decision to make. I am happier then I've been in a long time, feel more like myself too. Taking it one day at a time and seeing where my new life takes me.

Living alone now and loving every moment of it! Being able to be independent and on my own and not have to rely on anyone or worry about anyone elses input or feelings is exactly what I need right now. I am always broke as a freaking joke, but it's fine. Money is money, everyone wants some, people who have it want more, and people who don't have it need it and hate it. I think I fall in the last of those categories, hate money, but I need it, lol. What ever happened to the barter system? Not that I have any mad skills, but I could find a few I'm sure.

Job is great, better than ever!! Got a raise, a FAT raise, and just in time too now that I'm on my own. Feeling more comfortable here then I ever have before, so that's a plus. Most of my customers are fantastic and the ones that aren't are at least entertaining.

Wrecked my car recently, hit a deer on the way to go camping at the lake with my sister, her lover, and my gigi, and a friend. Haha, a friend! Ok, I'll get there later. Anyways, totally destroyed the front end of my car. Love, love, love my car, but she apparently she is accident prone. I got her from a recycling yard that my work deals with all the freaking time. She wasn't a total, just had been in an accident and the owner didn't want to fix her. She was originally from Georgia, so I named her Georgia. Yes, very original I know. Adjuster won't make it out for a week, so in the mean time my wonderful boss is letting me use his 4runner to get around. I am very blessed to have such caring and helpful people in my life, especially right now.

Okay, the friend. Ummm, I have been seeing this guy now for three weeks, ironic how the timing on the divorce and this guy are identical, hmmmm. LOL! I knew him in high school and then he reappeared in town at the perfect time, well semi-perfect time. I could not be happier right now either. He treats me so good, it's amazing. He is such a positive influence during this time in my life, exaclty what I need right now. I am hoping this is the "real thing". Keeping my fingers crossed on that one. It's just so soon after (errr during??) the divorce that I'm a little skeptical on my feelings right now, considering, which is normal, I'm guessing. I've never felt like this towards anyone though, which gives me hope that this will work out. He is currently trying to join the Navy. I cannot wait for that to happen! If all goes well with us, we can travel around, see some stuff, the world. I am really excited to see what my/his/our future holds.

Alright, I think that's it. Haha, definitely some craziness going on in my life. Excited about a lot of it, nervous about all of it! Bring it on LIFE!!